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A Letter To My Sisters

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I'm seeing a lot of border line prostitutes today. No ladies I'm not calling you a prostitute. You’re the daughter of a King. I am talking about your actions. 1. Posing half naked on line. 2. Sleeping around with randoms. 3. Compromising and lowering your standards just to have the presence of a man. 4. Only being interested in a man based on the job, status, financial security he has, and material possessions. All it takes is one slick talking fat wallet holding man to come and sweep you off your feet. One night of loneliness deceit can creep right in. I pray you wake up and stop selling yourself short. You belong to the Most High God. Your body is a temple. Your time is just too precious. But today you’re doing everything for fun instead of for a fee. Then there is some already sleeping around for rent money. Scratch that for nails and hair money. It's sad but when your whole crew is doing it you think its okay. It's not!!! I hear the conversations on th...

Do you truly believe?

You have a hard time obeying God because you have a harder time believing in God.  I didn't stop being sexual active because nobody wanted me or to clean up my act for the world. I started believing in Gods word. Colossians 3:5-14 I didn't start paying my tithes because my pastor was hounding me over the head about it. I started believing in Gods word. Malachi 3:9,10 I didn't start seeking forgiveness and making amends with people to make friends. I started believing in Gods word. Matthew 18:21-35 I don't share my testimony cause I'm bored and need to justify what I do or have done.I started believing in Gods word. Revelations 12:11  I don't act or think I'm perfect. I just started believing in Gods word. 2Corinthians 12:9 1John 1:9.  With my faith in God and The Holy Spirit as my helper I can do all things because I started believing FIRST. If you have a hard time believing talk to God about it. You mess up repent and try again. A...

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!DON'T GIVE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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If you never put a seed in the ground it only stays a seed. You have to put it in the dirt for the roots to sprout out. You must pour water on it so the seed will grow and become the plant it was intended to be.   It took me a little while to understand that life is so much similar. Whoever said accepting Christ will make your life peaches and cream LIED ! Pick up The Word and you will read NOBODY had a smooth sailing life.  It's time to put on the full armor of God and quit allowing the enemy defeat you!! You have been granted the power to overcome. You can't use what you don't utilize though. Get in The Word for yourself. Pray and ask God to lead you to the scripture to start with. Don't keep drowning in misery when you don't have to! Yes it's going to rain. Yes your going to get dirty. Keep pushing towards the expected end. Like a seed to a beautiful sunflower your expected end is to live eternally with The Lord. "But the s...

"But he Goes To Church"

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"But he goes to church" I fell for that same notion. “He goes to church.” I found myself in the same predicaments. But "he goes to church." I found myself still being manipulated. "But he goes to church.’’ I found myself still laying down next to a man whose last name I didn’t have. But ‘’he goes to church.’’ I found myself with child yet still a single woman in Gods eyes. "But he goes to church." I got in church. I dedicated my life to Christ but I still didn’t know what to do. I just went with the flow for a little while. I asked questions. I tried to seek Godly counsel from people in the church. All I got was "your alright baby just join the choir." "you alright just don’t hang with those ladies their bad news." "Your good just pay your tithes and building funds." Inside I was screaming "THAT’S NOT ENOUGH!” I prayed but I didn’t know how to hear from God yet. I wasn’t in church a good six mo...

"Love After War"

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Be with the one who will  love you like God loved the church. Be with the one who will love you with or without the Brazilian hair and eye lashes.  Be with the one who will love you  before you land the decent job. Be with the one who is willing to pick you up when you fall rather than be the one who causes you to fall.  Be with the one who will laugh when you laugh cry when you cry and fight when you fight.  Be with the one who has faith in you even before your greatness has fully manifested.  Be with the one who will fall in love with you over and over again.  Be with the one who loves you like God loved the church.  I remember the day I gave up on love and believed that this desire I had since I was 6 playing girlfriend and boyfriend at the Boys and Girls Club could only come true in a dream. To know what its like to be loved. Kids were playing Nintendo I'm home jamming Mariah Carey and Mary J "I'm going down"! ...

IS THIS LOVE? IS THIS LUST?

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1 Corinthians 13:4-8 "Love is very patient and kind, never jealous or envious, never boastful or proud, never haughty or selfish or rude. Love does not demand its own way. It is not irritable or touchy. It does not hold grudges and will hardly even notice when others do it wrong. It is never glad about injustice, but rejoices whenever truth wins out. If you love someone you will be loyal to him no matter what the cost. You will always believe in him, always expect the best of him, and always stand ground in defending." But no one hardly ever seems to love like that described in the scripture  above.God is love.  Can you honestly say that is being glorified in your relationship? Probably not, Its all selfish motive or settling for less than Gods best. Nowadays people get into relationships and marry for every reason but love. People are neglecting their vows and creating dysfunctional households. Relationships are hard work just like every other part of  life. Continue...

"Comes To The Light"

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I REMEMBER  sitting up with my home-girls calling other chicks sluts and h***. UNTIL  one day I became a h**. I REMEMBER  hating my Dad when I was growing up for not being in my life and taking care of someone else's kids over his own flesh and blood. UNTIL  I woke up one day in a Condo right off the beach in Florida that wasn't  mines with someone else's son and my boys were no where in sight. FOR A LONG TIME that was a truth I ran from. A truth I didn't want to own up to. I had messed up really really bad. Unintentionally I became like every person I never wanted to be like. I fell prey to a pimp and today's pimp culture and lost my identity. All the things I said "I would never do" I did. All the places I thought was out of my reach to go I went. Not to pursue my dreams but instead to hit the pavement every night to pay a pimp. To lay on my back and allow men to steal a piece of my precious jewel while my wifey and I robbed him for all he had....

A Mother's pain turned Son hurt

"Though my father and mother forsake me, the Lord will receive me." Psalm 27-4 Where it all began. A Mother can give you all the love in the world but it still doesn't fill the void of a Father. My Mother did her best to give me all I wanted and let me do what I wanted yet that void couldn't be filled. It didn't disappear during my adulthood either it just switched from desiring daddy's love to mans love. Many times I didn't want to admit that it was the desire to have my father around that hurt so bad deep down inside. My Dad didn't come to my games or come to the school when I got in trouble but he did for his Step children who attended school with me at that time. I tried to stay angry with him and talk negatively about him but deep down inside I still wanted to know what it would feel like to have Daddy's love. In relationships love meant pain for me. Love meant compromise if you wanted a man around. Even the "good guys" played gam...

Is Your Mind Made Up?

You wanna do right. But you keep doing wrong. You say God know my heart. So please don't judge me. Your right God does know your heart. But right now your heart is corrupt. Your heart is wicked. Your deepest love is money. Not God. Your deepest love is self-satisfaction. Not God. Just check what you treasure these days. Be honest, its not paying tithes or contributing to some nonprofit. If God was your deepest love you would trust in him and stop doing the most for the least. You put more effort in punching the clock getting to the money than your prayer life nowadays. God has blessed you  with a gift a talent worth more than gold. BUT are you using it?  Do you even know what your gift is? Who's table are you sitting at? Gods table or the demons? Or are you playing it buffet style eating at both tables? Did you know ..."you cannot drink the cup of the Lord and the cup of demons too; you cannot have a part in both the Lords table and the table...

Young folks "In Church"

At bible study my pastor made a statement saying "young folks don't know nothing about God. They don't love the Lord." I was so sad but then my Spiritual Mother told me," baby he ain't lying when you think about it.'  So I thought about it. When you look at our actions you see fornication (sex outside marriage), adultery (cheating married spouses), lying tongues, gossiping, fighting, anger, malice, drunkenness, and more all from church going young folk. People who are of the world simply don't know God so they use every excuse, every pain, every hurt as their excuse to sin and keep on sinning. Here we are "in church" but still falling victim and using excuses to sin.  No ONE will ever be sinless but we all should be sinning less or striving to sin-less. Instead we are wallowing and living freely in sin. Why is that? Do we not love God enough to start making changes? Or do we feel like Jeremiah did, " Alas, Sovereign Lord, I said, ...

Single and Faithful

Even when you are single you should practice being faithful.  Seek God wholeheartedly.Its time to start removing those distractions that draw you away from God. Wrong relationships and temporary relations. Its hard but it can be done one day at a time and even if you mess up get up seek forgiveness and try again. Jesus is number one in your life now. Old things have passed (beliefs and character) and the new is here. Ladies its time to close your legs to all men that is not your husband regardless of what ties he holds to you be it your first love, baby daddy, boo thang, or the guy who helps you financially from time to time. No matter how the world justifies it in Gods eyes sex outside marriage is immoral and a sin. The bible hasn't been edited or revised.Read the bible and you won't find it  anywhere. "But among you there must not be even a hint of sexual immorality."~Ephesians 5:3 The bible also says ,"Do not give dogs what is sacred;do not throw your ...

What's Your Valley?

The sermon today at church was entitled "walking in the valley" and the scripture was  Psalm 23:4 King James Version (KJV) 4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. I knew the Lord was speaking right to me. But what's your valley? What's your struggle right now that you just can't seem to get past? Is it school, a relationship, job, a bad habit you can't break or maybe your working toward entrepreneurship. Maybe you're single but feel that your ready for a relationship and God hasn't answered your prayers just yet. Maybe you feel a bit discouraged or think God has forgotten about u. Maybe you have slipped away from God and desire to come back to him but feel he won't listen or maybe you feel your too far to even know God. Today I want to relay a message to you. The devil is a big fat LIAR and God is in your midst even in your darkest ...

Suicide Girl (Saved by Grace)

 I was listening to Tupac and this verse stuck out to me. "Is life worth living or should I blast myself?" Tupac In 2011 a pistol was put to my head three times. Twice by me and twice by the cops(another story). On the outside I was doing really good compared to what I had just got out of. I had my own place with my boys, three jobs, car, and what looked like "freedom". My heart still hurt. My mind was still all over the place. Getting drunk wasn't helping. Getting high wasn't helping.The new guy wasnt helping.I was only doing more dumb stuff. Some I can remember and some I can't. They told me if I got it together I would be alright. By this point I couldnt take another piece of advice. Most of the people I knew was going through so it would be impossible for them to help me out. I had finally learned my lesson about seeking "help" or "friendly advice" from people. Sad to say but friends and family sometimes love to see you hurting...

Our Fallen Men (There is HOPE)

Men are struggling just as much as women in relationships today. A lot of men have been raised in single parent households mainly with their mothers. Instead of taking out time to train the child up in Godly principles he's being raised around all these negative adversaries and what I call "hood principles". Hood principles simply means beliefs outside of Gods word. A few examples: *He watches his Mother be selfish putting ALL her needs before his so grows up with selfish ambition since no one teaches him the joy of sharing. * He watches her put men before him so sex and using women becomes his escape. *He watches her work work work her 9 to 5 and struggle. Not because she doesnt have enough but lack of money management skills. He refuses to end up that way and turns to fast money. No one showed him the essence behind higher education or the opportunities that lurk past the street corner in his hood if he just takes a chance. *He hears and watches abuse and at the ...

Forever his "girlfriend"

Women today are so consumed with living in the moment their actually okay with being his forever girlfriend or girlfriend for the "moment". Instead of building toward a marriage we take on being the girlfriend who give up the benefits of marriage. I SPEAK from PERSONAL EXPERIENCE. Today, You may have her as a friend or you may be her. You know you don't see yourself spending the rest of your life with him. What if today was your last? Would you be satisfied with spending it with your current boyfriend? If no, Why are you settling with just being his girlfriend? Why not be single focus on God and work on being the best woman you can be while waiting on the man you will be spending your life with? Right now you're building soul ties with a man who will never be your  husband. What if this soul tie gets so strong you have a hard time moving on and miss out on your husband? Will you blame God because  you chose to stay and pass up each EXIT to leave? ...

My Celibacy Journey~

The Spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. I told my Mom and sisters in Christ if they see me drifting back or looking a mans way for too long.... slap me right on the forehead and simply say, "Stay focused Chanel. Its Gods will not yours or some random. Be patient." My Spirit is willing but my flesh is weak. I want to do right. I desire to do right but no matter how hard I try the devil stays tempting me. I get in my own way too. The devil tries to sift me and get me to fall for his sweet lies again. He's trying to get me to move ahead of Christ. He's trying to convince me to fall into lust again (façade of love) instead of waiting and trusting God. My mind is drowned with thoughts of my past to make me believe there is no hope! The devil is a lie!! I meditate on 2 Corinthians 10:4,5  For the weapons we fight with are not weapons of this world. On the contrary they have devine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish strongholds and every pretension that s...