No More Excuses! It's A New Day!

Lost- unable to find one's way; not knowing one's whereabouts     Queen - a. The wife or widow of a king. b. A woman sovereign. 2. a. A woman considered preeminent in a particular field     Dear Lost Queen,   I've been right where you are. Truth be told some day's I still lose my way. I know what it's like to live in this big ol' world and not know really know which way to go or who you really are. It's easy to get so caught up in what we see. It's easy to be lured into following the trends of life and cover up what's really bothering you with a smile, Mac Make-up, and stand tall with some bad a** pumps.   Underneath it all lies the truth your lost and don't really know your way. When you're all alone is the only time you can be real.  Then their some queens out there who think less of themselves because they can't hide it with the latest trends. So she even questions if her crown is really th...

P.I.M.P Power In Manipulating People Have you ever met someone who quit smoking and now they hate the smell of smoke? That's how I feel when I see people posting ignorant quotes and messages about pimps. I frown up my face and everything. LOL BUT SERIOUSLY…….THE TRUTH NO ONE TELLS……. Pimps aren't cool. They're criminals. They're liars. They're murderers. They're dream killers. They're kidnappers. They're rapist. They're thieves. They're master manipulators. But you'd never know that because you haven't walked a mile in my shoes. To you it's nothing more than a four letter word you heard from your favorite rapper. I look back over my life and it’s crazy. I remember how my first pimp had the game all dressed up for me. There weren’t any conversations like, "You're going to quit your job and become a stripper. Then I'm going to take you out of town away from all you're use to and deprogram you to depend on...

Break the cycle..... About 5yrs ago I went into this deep depression. I began to ask myself is this it? Dead end job? Meaningless relations? In school just be in debt? More bills than cash flow? I had secretly become very disappointed about my life. I felt like such a failure. I had just had my second son with a man who was literally a stranger because what I thought I knew about him was a lie including the name he gave me. There I was 21 with two little boys to raise and I could barely even raise myself......  I felt cursed. It was like every relationship I had went wrong. Nothing that I did ever really fulfilled me. Excitement would soon fade after a few months. The only thing that kept me afloat were my children but I felt like I had truly let them down.  I asked myself, " what do I truly have to offer them? Is this really all they have to look forward to when they grow up?"  I knew somewhere along the way I had missed the mark on life. I figured I must had missed out ...

"For I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God that brings salvation to everyone who believes: first to the Jew, then to the Gentile." Romans 1:16  My love for Christ continues to grow more and more every day. But I must be honest with you. It hasn't always been this way.......................... I grew up going to church on Sunday as a child. I remember going to vacation bible school and having lots of fun at church sneaking off to the restroom with friends to talk and look in the mirror. Lol You know little girls are! But as I got older church stop being fun and I actually had began to start paying attention to the pastor on Sunday. I remember he would always start out with a scripture but by the end of the service he was yelling at the congregation about something they had done wrong like not paying tithes, gossiping, and a host of other things. I was basically under the leadership of a pastor who used the pulpit to criticize his congregation...

Who are you? I'm just me. Chanel Dionne. The Daughter of a King on a journey of discovery and embracing life more and more each day. I'm also a single mother of 3 beautiful kids. I'm a writer, I love to speak, and I love to encourage and uplift people. I'm born in Texas and currently still reside there but plan to one day make Florida one day a home for me and my family. Not sure what part of Florida just yet! lol..... Who am I really? Honestly, I'm still figuring it out myself........ Why did I start blogging? I initially started blogging to share my celibacy journey with the world. I come from a background of abuse and many other things and in 2012 I made the decision to taking control back over my life. One of the biggest decisions was to start saying "NO" to men and "YES" to God. I lost a friend that same year to HIV and it just really challenged me to start living with integrity and heal from my past wounds instead of allowing them...

I use to jump from relationship to relationship because I was looking for something. The fulfillment to be loved with no limits. I thought a relationship would complete me. Each relationship came with the promise that it is what I needed. Instead each relationship left me more empty and broken.  I could have stayed in one broken relationship for 7yrs but I've always been able to see when a person reveals their true colors that it's time to move....  Being in one broken relationship is no better or worse than someone who has been in multiple broken relationships. Broken relationships almost always include infidelity. Although you may not be the one cheating the residue still touches you....  Each day I realize more and more the relationship I was in need of was with my Heavenly Father.  You'll never have fulfillment in any relationship until you have an established relationship with the Creator.... I've been chasing and looking for love, attention, and truth since I w...

Ever since I was a little girl I’ve always dreamed of being his one and only. Somehow I always ended up being someone else’s option. Like a favorite song, I started out on repeat. Couldn’t get enough of me. Then shortly afterwards I played out like a song on the radio….Now you’ve tuned me out and changed the station. And I quote the last thing you said, “on to the next one.” I always dreamed of being his one and only but he never even noticed me. How did I end up being someone else’s option?   The deception of lust…… I feel led to be transparent. I pray God leads this to the one who needs to be reminded how lovely she truly is in His sight even if no one else notices. I pray the man who reads this will think twice about the lady he chooses to mistreat. Since I was a little girl I always dreamed of being someone’s one and only. I’m a music lover and as a kid artist like Mary J, Indie Arie, Destiny’s Child, Alicia Keys, and Mariah Carey blasting in my room ...

The fig leaves are off.  No more boyfriends to hide behind.  No more late night hypes. My lil boo thang is what I called em.  No more Brazilian weaves to cover my Nappy Roots.  No more fake friends to keep me company while we drown in one another's misery.  No more labels on my Handbags.     No more racks on racks to brag about.  I'm feeling naked. No more red eye highs and drunk in lust moments.  I'm feeling naked. Then God speaks..... "Who told you that you were naked?  The woman said, "the serpent deceived me, and I ate."  I've been deceived these fig leaves never covered me they hindered me...  I'm feeling naked.  Then I realized it was just an illusion....  I'm feeling naked but what does my feeling have to do with Gods truth?  I've been cleansed in the Blood of Jesus I'm covered forever.......

For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for is an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. 2 Corinthians 4:17 Now you've dedicated your life to Christ. You've repented. You've chosen to transform and no longer conform to the pattern of this world. You stopped clubbing, drinking, being promiscuous, smoking, or etc....  The Holy Spirit is dwelling in you. So why are you still facing DAILY trouble???? I know you thought if you cut out all the immoral stuff things will change.. Isn't that what the preacher is screaming to me every Sunday????? Right?? WRONG!!! No matter how much you change your "actions" trouble can't be avoided.... No matter how close or how far away you are from God TROUBLE can't be avoided...  John 16:33  "I have told you THESE things so that in me you may have peace ..." Jesus speaks to let us know that he has spoke to us and shared wisdom with us because, " in THIS world you will face TROUBLE but take heart ...

I didn't know who I was so the world defined me... It started all innocent pretty girl, bossy, ugly, best dressed, smart girl to quiet then fast girl. Then it was most hated, bi sexual, cute to sexy, to baby mama to girl friend to , side chick, bank teller to senior operator, to promiscuous, pill popper, to depressed then lost... Never just Chanel Then I met my pimp and he told me that I was to drop the old identities and pick up a new one  beautiful, intelligent, talented, charismatic, hoe,hustla, go getta,  bitch to sexy black, to slut and the list goes on...The new identity left me more depressed and lost to contemplating putting a bullet to my head...Never just Chanel  I didn't know who I was outside of what I did for a living and the labels placed before me in the world.... In a conversation one night a pimp just flat out told me "I can't help you only God can"  Since that day I've been trying to figure out just what he meant by that. I...

  "The Prodigal Son" 11 To illustrate the point further, Jesus told them this story: “A man had two sons. 12  The younger son told his father, ‘I want my share of your estate now before you die.’ So his father agreed to divide his wealth between his sons. 13  “A few days later this younger son packed all his belongings and moved to a distant land, and there he wasted all his money in wild living. 14  About the time his money ran out, a great famine swept over the land, and he began to starve. 15  He persuaded a local farmer to hire him, and the man sent him into his fields to feed the pigs. 16  The young man became so hungry that even the pods he was feeding the pigs looked good to him. But no one gave him anything. 17  “ When he finally came to his senses, he said to himself , ‘At home even the hired servants have food enough to spare, and here I am dying of hunger! 18  I will go home to my father and say, “Father, I have sinn...

How many times do you go to church and you witness someone give their life to Christ?  Probably every Sunday. Did you know when a person decides to give their life to Christ and repents the angels in heaven are rejoicing? Read Luke 15:10 Rejoicing! Excited! Joyful! Again Rejoicing! But what are the Christians are earth doing? Immediately going to "fix" and "rescue" mode! That's not right!  MY STORY ( I love being transparent yal) When I gave my life to Christ I was BROKEN!! I had been out of "the game"(the true term is trafficked) for only a year. I hadn't identified myself as a victim or even felt I had been victimized and I still carried "the game" mentality. I hadn't been to church since I was a teenager. I didn't have any church clothes I had "ho" clothes.  No one asked me if I had any clothes but instead the elders were pulling my skirt down and covering up my  chest. Which I get the whole concept but while the Chri...

Being celibate means putting God first and trusting him in ALL that I do.  Being celibate means I will no longer be physically connected to a man other than my husband.  Being celibate means breaking soul ties and any curses from past relationships. Being celibate means waiting on my Husband to become one with him and grow in unity together under God. Being celibate means embracing my singleness using my time to serve The Lord verses hooking up with temporary pleasures just cause I'm lonely or have that urge from the depths of lust. Being sexually active ties you to a person more spiritually than you ever know. Issues that your sexual partner has  start to become your issues as well. That feeling you get when your having sex with someone is that connection I'm talking about. You can't see it but you feel it and know it's there. You know you need to end it but that feeling makes its hard to do. It's called Soul ties.  When you have sex outside of mar...

I lived in secret shame for years and I refuse to go back. Beginning somewhere around my dad coming up to my school every day with his step children and not acknowledging me as his daughter. He wouldn’t’t even speak to me in front of them. I continued to question my value or if I was of any importance. Then finding out at the age of 16 that the girl I was madly in love with was 6 months pregnant. After almost ruining the wonderful relationship between my Mom and I for even dating girls. To then walking across the stage pregnant leaving my 4yr scholarship to Texas A & M behind to raise my son barely even knowing how to raise myself. My life continued to unfold from there with more not so good choices. I based friendships and built relationships off of this hidden shame and embarrassment that I had. So I tried to cover it. I moved out at 18. I kept a decent job. I attended college. I even tried to make a relationship work over and over again because he was willing to cover...

I am convinced that people think they sit higher on the throne than God. Maybe they don’t even realize that they're attempting to take on the role of God when they sit in the judge’s seat.  In John 8:1-11 a woman is caught in the act of adultery ( sex between a married person and someone who is not that person's wife or husband) and the teachers of the law and the Pharisees (church people ) takes her to Jesus for judgment.    I can so relate to this scenario for my own personal life. When I became a stripper the word got around like the morning sunshine. Everybody wanted to witness it and had something to say. When my sin and shortcomings came to the light my video, and  leaving my kids to get money (during the time I was being trafficked by my pimp)  like the Pharisees and the teachers of the law they took it all to court for the judge to sentence me. In John 8 the people brought the adulterous woman to Jesus for judgment. People took my s...