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"Let me be a baby"

How many times do you go to church and you witness someone give their life to Christ?  Probably every Sunday. Did you know when a person decides to give their life to Christ and repents the angels in heaven are rejoicing? Read Luke 15:10 Rejoicing! Excited! Joyful! Again Rejoicing! But what are the Christians are earth doing? Immediately going to "fix" and "rescue" mode! That's not right!  MY STORY ( I love being transparent yal) When I gave my life to Christ I was BROKEN!! I had been out of "the game"(the true term is trafficked) for only a year. I hadn't identified myself as a victim or even felt I had been victimized and I still carried "the game" mentality. I hadn't been to church since I was a teenager. I didn't have any church clothes I had "ho" clothes.  No one asked me if I had any clothes but instead the elders were pulling my skirt down and covering up my  chest. Which I get the whole concept but while the Chri...

"Choosing Celibacy"

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Being celibate means putting God first and trusting him in ALL that I do.  Being celibate means I will no longer be physically connected to a man other than my husband.  Being celibate means breaking soul ties and any curses from past relationships. Being celibate means waiting on my Husband to become one with him and grow in unity together under God. Being celibate means embracing my singleness using my time to serve The Lord verses hooking up with temporary pleasures just cause I'm lonely or have that urge from the depths of lust. Being sexually active ties you to a person more spiritually than you ever know. Issues that your sexual partner has  start to become your issues as well. That feeling you get when your having sex with someone is that connection I'm talking about. You can't see it but you feel it and know it's there. You know you need to end it but that feeling makes its hard to do. It's called Soul ties.  When you have sex outside of mar...

Moving Past the Shame!

I lived in secret shame for years and I refuse to go back. Beginning somewhere around my dad coming up to my school every day with his step children and not acknowledging me as his daughter. He wouldn’t’t even speak to me in front of them. I continued to question my value or if I was of any importance. Then finding out at the age of 16 that the girl I was madly in love with was 6 months pregnant. After almost ruining the wonderful relationship between my Mom and I for even dating girls. To then walking across the stage pregnant leaving my 4yr scholarship to Texas A & M behind to raise my son barely even knowing how to raise myself. My life continued to unfold from there with more not so good choices. I based friendships and built relationships off of this hidden shame and embarrassment that I had. So I tried to cover it. I moved out at 18. I kept a decent job. I attended college. I even tried to make a relationship work over and over again because he was willing to cover...

Who is your judge?!?!?!!

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I am convinced that people think they sit higher on the throne than God. Maybe they don’t even realize that they're attempting to take on the role of God when they sit in the judge’s seat.  In John 8:1-11 a woman is caught in the act of adultery ( sex between a married person and someone who is not that person's wife or husband) and the teachers of the law and the Pharisees (church people ) takes her to Jesus for judgment.    I can so relate to this scenario for my own personal life. When I became a stripper the word got around like the morning sunshine. Everybody wanted to witness it and had something to say. When my sin and shortcomings came to the light my video, and  leaving my kids to get money (during the time I was being trafficked by my pimp)  like the Pharisees and the teachers of the law they took it all to court for the judge to sentence me. In John 8 the people brought the adulterous woman to Jesus for judgment. People took my s...