No More Excuses! It's A New Day!

Break the cycle..... About 5yrs ago I went into this deep depression. I began to ask myself is this it? Dead end job? Meaningless relations? In school just be in debt? More bills than cash flow? I had secretly become very disappointed about my life. I felt like such a failure. I had just had my second son with a man who was literally a stranger because what I thought I knew about him was a lie including the name he gave me. There I was 21 with two little boys to raise and I could barely even raise myself......  I felt cursed. It was like every relationship I had went wrong. Nothing that I did ever really fulfilled me. Excitement would soon fade after a few months. The only thing that kept me afloat were my children but I felt like I had truly let them down.  I asked myself, " what do I truly have to offer them? Is this really all they have to look forward to when they grow up?"  I knew somewhere along the way I had missed the mark on life. I figured I must had missed out ...

"For I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God that brings salvation to everyone who believes: first to the Jew, then to the Gentile." Romans 1:16  My love for Christ continues to grow more and more every day. But I must be honest with you. It hasn't always been this way.......................... I grew up going to church on Sunday as a child. I remember going to vacation bible school and having lots of fun at church sneaking off to the restroom with friends to talk and look in the mirror. Lol You know little girls are! But as I got older church stop being fun and I actually had began to start paying attention to the pastor on Sunday. I remember he would always start out with a scripture but by the end of the service he was yelling at the congregation about something they had done wrong like not paying tithes, gossiping, and a host of other things. I was basically under the leadership of a pastor who used the pulpit to criticize his congregation...

Who are you? I'm just me. Chanel Dionne. The Daughter of a King on a journey of discovery and embracing life more and more each day. I'm also a single mother of 3 beautiful kids. I'm a writer, I love to speak, and I love to encourage and uplift people. I'm born in Texas and currently still reside there but plan to one day make Florida one day a home for me and my family. Not sure what part of Florida just yet! lol..... Who am I really? Honestly, I'm still figuring it out myself........ Why did I start blogging? I initially started blogging to share my celibacy journey with the world. I come from a background of abuse and many other things and in 2012 I made the decision to taking control back over my life. One of the biggest decisions was to start saying "NO" to men and "YES" to God. I lost a friend that same year to HIV and it just really challenged me to start living with integrity and heal from my past wounds instead of allowing them...

I use to jump from relationship to relationship because I was looking for something. The fulfillment to be loved with no limits. I thought a relationship would complete me. Each relationship came with the promise that it is what I needed. Instead each relationship left me more empty and broken.  I could have stayed in one broken relationship for 7yrs but I've always been able to see when a person reveals their true colors that it's time to move....  Being in one broken relationship is no better or worse than someone who has been in multiple broken relationships. Broken relationships almost always include infidelity. Although you may not be the one cheating the residue still touches you....  Each day I realize more and more the relationship I was in need of was with my Heavenly Father.  You'll never have fulfillment in any relationship until you have an established relationship with the Creator.... I've been chasing and looking for love, attention, and truth since I w...