My Celibacy Journey~

The Spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.

I told my Mom and sisters in Christ if they see me drifting back or looking a mans way for too long.... slap me right on the forehead and simply say, "Stay focused Chanel. Its Gods will not yours or some random. Be patient."

My Spirit is willing but my flesh is weak. I want to do right. I desire to do right but no matter how hard I try the devil stays tempting me. I get in my own way too. The devil tries to sift me and get me to fall for his sweet lies again. He's trying to get me to move ahead of Christ. He's trying to convince me to fall into lust again (façade of love) instead of waiting and trusting God. My mind is drowned with thoughts of my past to make me believe there is no hope! The devil is a lie!!

I meditate on 2 Corinthians 10:4,5 For the weapons we fight with are not weapons of this world. On the contrary they have devine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish strongholds and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God. We take captive every thought and make it obedient to Christ.
  
 The Spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. My Spirit is with Jesus but my flesh is fighting against it. I rebuke soul ties from my past. I rebuke anything that comes my way and is outside the will of God! The Spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.

My Spirit wants real unconditional love.
My flesh is accustomed to the façade of love (lust)
My Spirit wants to wait on my husband. No compromise.
My flesh is satisfied with someone of the moment. A lover who is not mine.
My Spirit desires to be obedient.
Flesh desires to sin and condemn me.
The Spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.

   Lord have Mercy on Me!
My struggle! No more excuses!
Living for Christ! #Putting God First

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